MUSINGS :

ABOUT SUSPICIONS -

    Everyone has at one point or the other during one's life, suspected one's spouse, lovers or friends of infidelity; of being unfaithful. Every one of us has felt a pang of uncertainty - of doubt over some unexplained absence, some careless remark or late arrival. Though there is nothing definite in these fears, it is nothing more than a confused suspicion. Even though the loved one's embraces are as lusty as ever and they laugh at your jokes, your witticism, maybe also share their innermost views, opinions, scares with you but there is some nagging suspicion. Maybe their eyes are a little bright when they look at you ….. maybe too bright. Sometimes even their tone of talking or the way they laugh may make you feel a little unnerved. It may be perhaps, we detect - well I do think we detect - in our loved one's attitude towards us, that profound compassion, a complacency, a feeling of infinite supremacy, which one shows or directs towards only to those who have lost them or when being taken by them for a big ride. There is a suspicion within us of being made complete fools of by our loved ones.

    We have been taught to be suspicious of all the things in our early years, which may be the basic problem about us having our suspicions of everybody that we meet, particularly our loved ones. Suspicion may be the very nature of a lot of people, which is an endemic disease of their own self. Maybe we try too hard to see different meanings in people's actions, words - trying to read their minds and purpose. This can be pretty dangerous, because we could fall prey to our own fears. This always proves fatal where friendships and marriages are concerned.